É que a vida sabe muito bem quando o coração tá apertado, quando a gente ta precisando de novos ares, e ela dá um jeito de trazer certas pessoas nas mais inesperadas ocasiões nos mais inesperados lugares. E algumas dessas pessoas, ah, elas marcam a gente pra valer.

do you know who you are?

I am broken. My heart has been thrown to the floor and it has parted into so many pieces, so much more than I could ever keep track of.
I think it'll always remain that way.
I think we are all broken, just like that. And we will never be whole again, because all those bits and pieces of our broken hearts have been left along the way, as if it were bread crumbs that we've dropped throughout our path to remind us of those places we've been and of all those people that meant something, that made us feel something, whether it was love or hate or lust or peace. I think that's important. It's important to remember what made us, what turned us into who we are now.
I don't mind being broken. At least I know who I am.

rabiscos - parte III

Eu procuro nas esquinas, pelas ruas, nos cantos mais escuros, desesperada e incansavelmente, e não consigo achar o que mais quero e preciso. Não consigo...

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E eu que um dia cheguei a pensar que amar era fácil e amor era fácil de achar...

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Porque ele dizia que sabia o que era necessário para me fazer feliz mas só me arrancou lágrimas ao invés de sorrisos.

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O tempo passa, os ponteiros do relógio continuam a girar e mesmo assim parece que estou sempre no mesmo lugar. Quando é que a ferida vai cicatrizar?

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Toma conta da minha vida e não sai pela porta sem dizer quando volta. Eu vou estar aqui, esperando de braços abertos.

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Preciso de alguém que se importe. Que se importe com o que sinto, que fique preocupado quando estou com cara de poucos amigos e saiba o que fazer pra me acalmar. Preciso de espontaneidade, de honestidade. Preciso de calmaria, de paz de espírito, mesmo quando meu coração estiver disparado simplesmente porque estás perto de mim. Preciso de alguém.

i'll be yours and you'll be mine

I hope one day I'll get to call you mine. I hope one day I'll get to feel loved and safe in your arms, that at the end of a rough day you will take a single look at me and know exactly what to do to make me feel better. You will know when to make a stupid joke and when to simply embrace me and kiss me to take away all my sorrows. You will know how my mind works, what makes me happy and what makes me sad and what makes me angry. And sometimes you'll do what pisses me off just because you like how I look when I'm mad and for the sake of it. And I will feel like killing you knowing at the same time that I wouldn't be able to go through a day without your presence. I hope one day we will get to a Friday night and ditch going out to stay home watching a stupid movie and ignoring that stupid diet I decided to get myself into. You will love me in a stunning red dress with my hair done and you will love me in pajamas with my hair in a ponytail. 

And it's not only about me. I hope one day I will know how you feel and what goes through your mind just by looking into your eyes. I will have you lay down with your head on my lap and play with your hair cause I know how much you love that and how it calms you. I hope one day I will make you embarrassed in front of your friends by telling them just how much of a softy you are. And you will blush and squeeze my thigh under the table and you will feel like killing me knowing at the same time that you wouldn't be able to go through a day without my presence. We will fight about the silliest things and end up laughing at ourselves. You will make me watch your favourite team's match even though you know I hate it with all my might. And I will watch it because I love you. I love you in a suit and I love you in your old t-shirt and shorts.

I hope one day you will call me yours.

love, amour, l'amore...

I believe in love at first sight. I believe in love at first smile. I believe in love at first touch. I believe in love at first kiss. I believe in love in all its forms, in every single way it can exist, as long as it makes your heart beat faster, as long as it gets your palms sweating and your mind blank just from being next to that person. I believe in it as long as it makes you happy, as long as it puts a smile on your face in the most random of times, just because that person crossed your mind or someone mentioned their name. I believe in it as long as it's healthy and beautiful and as long as it makes you feel invincible. Cause when it hurts, when it stings, well, that's not love. Love is supposed to be the cure for every wound, the medicine for every pain. Good and pure and peaceful at heart. Don't trust anything that doesn't make you feel like that.

learning

I looked at him and I talked to him and I thought maybe, just maybe, he could be the person I needed. That he could bring what I needed to have. But my heart... oh, my heart has learned not to spring the door wide open and welcome whoever's waiting on the other side with a smile and sweet words. No. My heart learned the hard way to be careful, to explore the new and unknown territory very well before deciding whether or not to let them in. So yeah, maybe you could be who I'm looking for. But you're gonna have to prove it.

rabiscos - parte II

E ainda assim, ele tem o poder de me levar à loucura. Mesmo sendo, também, o motivo da minha sanidade.
                                                                  
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E não sai da minha cabeça aquele sonho, aquela sensação, de que tudo estava perfeito e não havia nada a ser feito além de ser feliz.

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Eu to pedindo a tua mão, to pedindo pra me levar pra qualquer lugar que tenha sol, mar e música pra gente dançar.

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Eu amei você da melhor forma que poderia. Meu coração se abriu para te receber com balões coloridos, chapéus de festa e música animada, mas você não soube como lidar com tudo isso. E de alguma forma não foi o suficiente e agora você se foi e eu não sei o que fazer.

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Eu quero acreditar que há alguém lá fora, alguém que está só esperando pra trazer significado pra minha vida, paz pro meu coração, e um sorriso pro meu rosto.

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Sabe aquela roupa nova que você comprou e ainda não teve chance de estrear? Veste. Agora. Veste ela e coloca aquele seu sapato de salto maravilhoso e sai! Sai pra vida que a vida não te espera...

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Pega minha mão e vamos até lá, onde céu e mar se encontram e nós somos feitos um pro outro.

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No dia em que o amor me encontrou, o meu cabelo tava feio e eu tinha esquecido de arrumar as unhas. Tava com preguiça de ir trabalhar e não queria muita conversa, mas não é a gente que decide quando as coisas vão acontecer, certo? Pois é. E mesmo o meu esmalte estando lascado, o meu cabelo frizzado, a preguiça e o mau humor dominando, você me olhou de um jeito que parecia que eu era uma princesa. E eu meio que me senti uma princesa, mesmo. E me sinto assim até hoje.